Christmas is Apon Us..

(Me and Damien Sept. 09)

And I have no spare minutes! Work has been nuts. Yes We all knew working at a internet based retailer that Christmas is our busiest time of year.. This year people are spending like crazy! I think this is our busiest Christmas in the 4 years that I worked here. So hence the very short post today.

I have been working like crazy to make a little extra for the holidays. and really I think im starting to burn myself out.. I worked Last Monday 9am-8pm, last Friday 9am-8pm. Saturday I babysat, Sunday I worked 12pm-2:30pm tonight I work 8am-8pm. Tuesday through Thursday Normal 9-5. Friday is our work holiday party! Whoo Hoo!!
We did not have one last year due to the economy being so bad, So I can not wait for that!

One thing that got me this past week. When I was working at our outlet store out in the southtownes. And my Ex-Boyfriend's Cousin came up to me and started talking. This is the boyfriend I had for oh 2 odd years right before Damien almost 9 years ago now. In fact I left Adam for Damien. I am not the kind that has 2 guys hanging and things between me and Adam were going down hill for quite some time. I was very unhappy and when I met Damien and we clicked I broke it off with Adam.

Well Anyway, She came up to me after leaving the store to ask if I ever went out with Adam, I confirmed: Why Yes I did. And we got to talking. Seems Adam is now married with a baby of his own. She showed me a picture of this adorable little looked no more then one year old.

Now I'm not going to lie, that got to me a little. Here I am desperately wanting that Ring ( now I don't need anything fancy, it can be fake for all I care, I just want the promise of being his Wife) and to have a baby of my own. Now don't get me wrong I don't in any way want Adam, We would have been miserable together. Or more likely I would be miserable. I will go further on that another post.

But I so want to be a mom. I am going to be 30 in June and I think I am getting that ticking feeling from my biological clock that all women talk about. Not to mention I love kids and they generally love me right back.

I hope that 2010 brings me my Dreams of starting our family.. Being a Wife and a mother.. I am so ready! and If come March 8th ( Damien and I's 9th Anniversary) I do not get asked a certain question, I might as well ask him, It is going to be 2010 after all!

Whew, this got a little longer then expected!

Shelly <3