Doctors Doctors Doctors..

It feels as though lately my life as been one big doctor appointment.

Between Gyn follow up for the D & C.. which was all clear.. to New Primary care visits, Because frankly I was never one to go to a doctor. We figured we are 30, if we want kids we should be sure we are healthy ourselves. We made the appointment when we thought we were going to be parents. But we kept it because its the grown up thing to do.

So last week we both went in for physicals. And low and behold we both have high cholesterol. Enough so apparently to take medication for a bit to bring it down. Kinda weird. I am all of 99 pounds but I guess high cholesterol does not discriminate.  But that seems to be all that is wrong with us, Which is good I guess if we get this taken care of now.

Then I went to the dentist this morning. I hate the dentist. If I can never go again I would be happy. I had a bad experience in the past where something was not taken care of right and I got really sick. Not to mention they stick  huge plastic things in your mouth and tell you to bite down while they take xrays.

I am tiny, Mouth included. My old dentist oh 5 yrs ago used to use child size one's they just fit better and I don't choke on them.

 My front tooth cracked a while ago and I know I needed to get it fixed. It does'nt hurt anything but my self esteem. With getting married within the next year I want a nicer smile. So I sucked it up and made a appointment.

Why do they give you a questionere of what you are concerned about and scared of if they do not pay attention to it? I put on there about the child size things when taking xrays. They looked at the paper and tried to shove those huge plastic things in my mouth, which did not work. They do not fit in my mouth. and finally gave in and used smaller ones; and what do you know .. no issues!

But I found out which I really should not have been surprised. That I need a root canal on that front tooth and then it capped and it should be all fixed. I have a couple of smaller cavaties that we can get fixed at a later time. But the dentist and I agreed that front tooth is my first prioirty. I really don't have alot of extra cash and I have Aflac as dental insurance which covers up to a certain amount then it is all up to me to pay the rest. So one thing at a time. After the insurance I am looking at $100 out of pocket for this procedure.

Which is quite frankly alot for a person living check to check. But I can deal. So July 6th. I have an appointment to get this done. I hope it is not too painful. Because I am a baby and not fond of pain at all.

1 week from Saturday is our 5th annual summer picnic and I cannot wait. It was a blast last year which I am sure it will be again.. I need some pain free fun. My life has had a series of Up's and Down's lately and I just want to get back to normal. We are getting our apartment fixed up and hoping to have it done by the end of summer. Then we can concentrate on working on the wedding. Then we are planning on trying again for a baby and hopefully we will have better luck this time.

Until next time.

Shelly <3

I Heart Faces - All About Babies

This week at I heart faces it's all about babies.. I took this picture of Damien's youngest cousin, enjoying a nap and her thumb at a recent wedding..

Head on over to I Heart Faces for more Cute Baby Photos!

Shelly <3

Samanthas 2nd Dance Recital

So last friday was Sam's Second dance recital. And let me tell you that girl is not shy at all!

This was a long dance recital. She was act 17 and there were 57 total. Long night, it started at 7 and did'nt end until 10:45. That is a long time for a 5 yr old to stay awake.

Let me tell you she stole the show. again she was at the end of the line. 

She was moving, if she was doing the right moves I am not sure.. but she sure had fun.

               This one was at the Finale, Notice the teacher standing right behind her. She had to hold onto her skirt to keep her from going forward. She was blowing kisses, dancing around. In other words being Sam.

              This one is a little blurry but tells the perfect story. Here the curtain was just about to close and the teacher lost her grip on her. Just minutes after this She had to grab Sam and pull her back as the curtain was closing. Pretty sure Sam thought all those people clapping were for her! At least 8 of them were.

 Daddy Sam and Mommy.

 Me and my Favorite 5 yr old. Boy I love that  kid.

Shelly <3

He Finally Did it..

Sunday it finally happened. Damien asked me to Marry him.. So I am finally engaged to the Man I love after 9 yrs together..

Hey Better Late then Never, Right!

                                   I do have to say he did a pretty darn good job!

  So I am now officially Engaged. I am very excited. Just had to share with you all!

Shelly <3

What a beautiful day for a wedding

Today we went to damiens cousins wedding. They had it at Glen Park. It is a Beautiful Park with a waterfall and lots of pretty trees. It was very low key but beautiful all the same.

It was a very nice day. There were 2 other weddings there also, so their original spot was taken by another couple. But it turned out nice anyway.

Here are a couple pics of the big day..

                            Emma the Flower Girl.  She is one of the Brides Niece's.. One of 7 girls..
                                           That's Right 7 girls! Damien's 2nd cousins..

                                                              Mrs and Mr. Battle

                                    This is the youngest of the 7 Nieces. She slept through
                      the whole thing but I thought it was so sweet she was sucking her thumb..

                                              Damien and his Older Brother. He may be the
                                                     Middle Child but he is the tallest!

                                                                      Me and Damien

 

Damien his Mom and his Brother Chris. Only one missing is 

 His Younger brother who had to work.

All in all a beautiful day. Congrats to the New Mr. & Mrs. Battle. May you be

 Happy in love for all of time!

Shelly<3

Goodbye 20's Hello 30's

Well today is my 30th Birthday. No more20's.. I usally love birthdays. I don't care I am getting older. I love the presents and how the day is all about you. But this year is a little differant. Nope not because I am 30 now. Today is 1 week since my dreams of being a mom were crushed.

Nice birthday present huh?

I hope we can try again in a couple months. But I will always worry until I actually see something on that screen. I no longer trust pregnancy tests. I had 4 that were all positive. I had a crap load of prenatal blood work that all came back normal. Yet when we went for that sonogram last week, nothing was there.

I am trying to not dwell. Esp. Today. It's supposed to be my day after all But it's hard to celebrate when all you feel like you want to do is cry. Sure this week has had some good times. Not all of them have been bad. But I still feel that little twinge.

It shouldn't be hard 29 was not really that good to me anyway and I should be glad it's gone. From my job to this recent turn in events I should be really happy I am no longer 29.

But as I turn 30 today I thought my life would be a little different. I thought I would be married with at least one child. It's not like you can have children forever and I am worried we are going to wait too long and it will never happen for me.

I know Damien wants kids. I want kids. Just this thing last week killed me. I think he is over it. Me not so much.

I know I am practically married anyway. But I want the real thing. I know it will happen just when I have no clue

Dam has asked me what I want for my birthday today. Honestly I have no idea. I want our baby back is what I want but no one can give that to me. Unfortantly he has to work all day, and being off yesterday means he will probably have to work later then normal. So I get to spend my big 30 alone most of the day. As I have Tuesdays off of work. Fun Wow!

I know I should be happy to be healthy and turning another year older. I guess there really can be worst things that can happen to a person.

So goodbye 20's.. I hope my 30's are better to me..

Shelly