Getting over my Fears

So everyone has a fear or two, right, Mine include Spiders and Dentists.. see a long time ago I had a horriable experiance with a dentist.. I had a bad absess and went to an emergency room type of dentist to get it taken care of since I did not have dental insurance and it hurt so bad I was getting headaches. 

Well this dentist was rough and gave me no pain meds at all after even tho the tooth did have an infection. In short I was sent back to work right after they pulled it, which at the time was right across the street from the hospital. I got dizzy and really sick about a half hour later and it was not a fun afternoon or couple days after that. Ever since then Dentists terrified me. 

I am not a big fan of pain to begin with and the thought of another person in my mouth messing around scared the crap out of me. I can honestly say I have not had the best mouth care in the past and when I was younger did slack on the brushing, though I have "soft" teeth to begin with and will never have perfect teeth, not taking care of them as I should have just made them worse. Now that I am in my 30's and take better care of myself I needed to get over my fear and get my teeth fixed. Esp. my front 2, One of which is cracked and broken and generally does not look good. after all your smile is the first thing people see when they look at you and I always try to smile with my mouth shut.

So while I am pregant and unemployed I was approved for Medicaid. Which covers dental work. I looked into getting it fixed last year before I lost my job and with partial coverage they wanted $500 to fix it. I don't know about you, but we are a paycheck to paycheck household and I just did not have the extra $500 to spend. Medicaid covers dental procedures 100%. 

So with a little pushing from Damien I made an appointment to get started. Might as well take advantage of the full coverage while I have it right! Well I had a cleaning of sorts last week. The dentist was very nice understanding and gentle, so they gave me 2 more appointments in coming weeks. My first one was today and I am happy to say one of the 2 crappy front teeth are filled and looking so much better. 

I go back again next week for the more extensive messed up one, that one will need a root canal and a crown, the filling just won't cut it.. I am a little nervous but once that is done,  I can smile again. and not be ashamed of my teeth. and with the baby coming I am sure I will be wanting to smile a lot! So Wednesday I go in and get that done, and Thursday is my next OB appointment.

I am happy I found someone who is gentle, understanding and not pushy, there is nothing worse then a dentist scolding you for crappy teeth, that is why I can to you because I know they are crappy I don't need a reminder..

So in another week of so, I will have better teeth, and probably another pic of our little jellybean. I am currently 12 almost 13 weeks and everything seems to be going well.  I'll be happy to get all the dental work over with that is for sure, the dentist is still not my favorite place but I think I can confidently say it is not one of my fears anymore.. now Spiders are another story.

Til next time <3

Shelly