Friday, May 22, 2009
So in a week from Monday I will be turning 29 (June 1st).. I love birthday's but this year has me thinking, most of the blogs I read are from women who are around my age maybe a little older maybe younger but almost all have children. I was always the one who wants to have things settled before I start having kids, I want to give my kids more then I had. There is nothing wrong with that but at this point I am ready to just jump in to parenthood and preferable marriage and start my family everything else will fall into place. I have written before about my longing for kids.. I babysit a bunch., I love kids and I know I will make a great mom, and Damien has mentioned kids almost everyday this week. I think he may be ready as well.. I just want to start ,I look at people's photos of their family's and wish that was me. I never had what you would call a great family life. Everything always came before me. and at times I still feel things are more important then me but I'm a big girl I can handle it.
I what you call a person with no spine. there is hardly a time when someone asks me to do something that I will say no. That is just how I have always been and I tend to get screwed on more then 1 occasion. So called friends, But that is a post all itself.. I guess the one thing that does bother me is no one ever remembers when it comes time for something special for me. Such as my birthday. I am not a person all about materials things, all I really am asking for is a call or even a text wishing me a happy birthday, that does not seem too much to ask for. I really don't have all that many good friends. Most are my cousins and all but 1 forgot last year. I make sure I at least call and wish them a happy birthday. Maybe I should not care so much.,,
We have a girls night 3 days before my birthday,. I have mentioned it multiple times, We shall see if anyone remembers me this year..