Monday, January 25, 2010

Getting out a bad week..

I had a really crappy week last week, but this week I am done with all the stress. I am going to make my week better, even though I found out the raise I thought I got, was a mistake by the payroll company. I don't have to give it back, but this week it will be back to normal minus the $50 extra I had last week,. Oh well.. Maybe I will get a raise once they are ready to hand them out.

I am determined to get over this bitterness that I have for the place that I loved just a week ago. I don't know why this is bothering me so much. Not sure if it was the fact that I got passed over again, and for the first time I really believe I should have been given the job. Granted I have been doing it already without the label. I finally believe in myself and was the best person for the job. And I thought they all respected me, When I was told They gave it to someone else, I was crushed.

I won't admit that to many people. But I was, I am not the make a big fuss and cause a racket to get my way type of person. And One of the people I consider my second family told me, Because he did not want me to find out any other way. And I truly believe he has nothing but my best interests at heart and I couldn't yell at him, even If I could.

I think I just don't understand why I was not just automatically considered. What is it that I am doing wrong that I am not considered management material. Now no one actually said that to me, and he said it was nothing against me at all but I was told my current Manager recommended he guy who got the job and the another co-worker jess, Him and Her, and not me.

Sure we have had our issues in the past 6 months or so. But I did'nt think it was personal. and trust me it was me getting aggravated because we were supposed to be a team , but it turned out me doing 95% and him 5%. You may think this could be common with a manager, But not when the whole department from 9am-5pm is you and him. That is it. At night we have another person, and we have another on the weekends.

So there really is not so much managing to do, then making sure things were covered and problems get taken care of, which by the way I handle all customer service problems. From missing items, to damaged items to lost claim to call tags to order taking. and on and on. Which I have no problem doing if I have a little help.

And with my current boss we sometimes worked good together then it would go all back to before. now you have to understand this is my lets see i will be there 5 yrs in august, I have had 1,2,3,4 and make this 5 "boss's". and I have been the one holding the department together through it all. I have been through 1 boss being fired for watching porn on his work computer 6 out of 8 hours, Yea, imagine my shock when I found that out!

Then I found out that a X-Co-Worker was stealing thousands of dollars of product, and made up a name and resold our stuff in ebay, mind you copying the exact description of our website. and picture. not very bright. The way I found out his then Girlfriend and new mother of his baby found out and told me. the baby who was just 10 months at the time. I always wondered how he bought PS3's and anything else he wanted and still had money for the baby and his GF, I Mean he was making the same if not less then me and his GF was not working.

Yea so it was Me who told them what was going on once I confirmed it. Me, who had to sit there and pretend nothing was happening when they searched his car and found every invoice he falsely made, idiot, and took him away. obviously he felt safe. I thought we were friends. Guess I was wrong I had no idea how he got away with it so long. we figured he at least took 4 grand in product that we can trace, Who knows how much more.

I also occupational babysit for one of the owners 7 yr old daughter and has since she was 4, so when she has no school at times she is at work, and guess who watches her.. while still working! Me! But she mainly colors or writes on the dry erase board or play games on my Iphone. that comes in handy! She is really a good girl though.

Now I am not saying I deserve the position for any of those reasons because really I would do all the same things if the situation came up again. I think I deserve even if it is really all a title, because i earned it, becuase even with all those things going on I can still get my work done, Still answer the phone and emails.

So Why don't I even get considered? I guess the only way to find this out is to ask someone, But that terrifies me too. I get nervous just thinking about it. but my subconscioussay is just not letting this go, I want to, I want to just accept it and move on.

But This is another week and already it is a better start, My car is finally inspected and my tire has all 5 lugnuts! Which is always a plus. since you know you kinda need the tire to stay attached to the car to drive well.

I am looking forward to dinner with some close friends on Friday, Then I was invited to a girls night of poker (which I have no idea how to play but no one else does either) , wine, snack foods and girl talk. I will need it desperately!

So I am determined to get past this bump and start on the road again. I am done second guessing myself, I am done feeling sorry for myself. Time to show that I am the bigger person, I will pout no more, even if it is in private. I am going to continue to do what I do and see where it gets me.

Just being real and being me.

Shelly <3

Take me back Tueday

I am continuing on the Take me Back Tuesday band wagon. It was fun last week.

Remember this is a really fun meme that A Give addicted Mommy started, so hope on over to her blog and check out everyone's old photos. A glimpse of the past!

This week: Me Age 6.. I think this is Kindergarten. Gotta Love the Puffy Sleeves!

Yea I don't look too much differant, do I ? Just a litter bigger and more mature, but basically the same.. See..

Or maybe this one is a little better.. I am the one on the Right.. Please excuse the quality, it was taken with a cell phone.I would say in the green, but we both seem to be wearing a greenish color..

I am going to be 30 in June and I still get people telling me I look like anywhere from 16-18. People say I will love it when I'm older. But right now, it's annoying. The only time me looking so young is in my advantage is during a carnival or theme park where they have that game that they guess your age. I almost always win!

Oh well, Guess things could be worse then looking young.

Shelly <3

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Continue of Crappiness

As I suspected when he came out of our computer room later last night, it was like nothing ever happened. But then this morning he doesn't seem to be talking to me again.. what did I do from midnight to this morning, maybe I talk back in my sleep?? Who knows.. I'm not going to worry about it anymore.. I did nothing wrong, he can get over himself.

I just want this week to be over and start fresh next week, the only day so far this week that nothing crappy happened was Tuesday, Monday the car failed inspection for the 2nd time as suddenly 3 lug nuts went missing on a tire. After we just got the brake pads replaced over the weekend.

Then we get the lug nuts fixed Monday and Wednesday we go to tighten them in the morning as 1 stud still needed to be replaced, and one popped right off. So we had to get that fixed yesterday we drove to work scared the tire would fall off. we got there fine.

and of course finding out I was passed over again for the manager position and Damien not talking to me yesterday and again today.

I'm just done, I do not want anymore drama. I want to be respected. This doesn't seem to ever happen for me.

I am sorry for all the woe is me post's this week. Next week I promise more pictures as I am way behind on the 365 project.

Thanks for listening err. reading!

Shelly <3

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Crappy Day #2..

Ok, Quiz Time:

How would you react if your girlfriend told you she did not get the Manager position because her jerk of a ex-boss decided to recommend 2 other people rather your self. Now thats a bad day already right? How would you react?

A. Say your sorry their day was crap and listen if she wants to talk.

B. Give them a hug and say oh well their loss.

C. Get mad at her and not talk to her and say she should demand the position or quit, and people are walking all over her and why doesn't she stand up for herself..

Yea if your guessing C, that's what happened too me. I really don't get it. Now here's the thing Me and him work at the same place, me in customer service currently Assistant Manager. He works in the shipping department.

Now me not getting this is basically just the title, nothing more then what I am doing now, which is pretty much all the customer service. This is the third time this has happened to me in a way. My job is pretty laid back not really cooperate.

And I really do love working there, The owners really do take care of us most of the time. I guess I am disappointed because I proved I can handle it, I already do. But no one ever wants to give me the chance it seems,

and My boyfriend not talking to me, I just don't get. I guess it was my mistake for even telling him. I thought he may get mad but not at me! I have no idea what I did. We will be together 9yrs in march you would think by now he would know who I am.

I am the most non-confrontation person on the planet. However that does not mean I give in to everything . I know my job and I do it well. I know when to give in to a customer and I know when to stand my ground. I am the one who covers when someone calls off or gets sick as we are really a 4 person department.

And I finally thought I was going to get that chance to actually be a Manager and prove I may be quiet but I can do it. I guess not this time. I was disappointed enough I really didn't need him treating me like crap too..

I just don't know. I am sure in a couple hours he will come out and it will be like nothing ever happened. But it hurts me, I just can't express it. Since I really have no "best" friends I can confide in. I decided to get it all out on the blog. At least people I have never met will listen to me (in a way).

Sorry this got so long, but I think I feel a little better now. If you got through this whole thing, Thanks for reading!

Shelly <3

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Take me back Tueday

This is what I love about blogging.. I make a blog friend and sometimes they participate in cool photo memes or other fun memes and I'm not ashamed to say I totally jump on the band wagon and follow right along.. That happened with I Heart Faces .. and You Capture .. now I am going to follow Whimsical Creations and hop on the "Take me back Tuesday" band wagon that A Giveaway Addicted Mommy started.

So without Further Ado here I am Circa 1984 I would be 4yrs old. This date say's June '84 so I am guessing this might be on my 4th birthday.

This should be fun, Looking forward on heading over to "Take me Back Tuesday" Each week!

Shelly <3

The Drama,, keep me out of it..

I really have no idea how I turned out so differently then the rest of my family.

You see my mom seems to love the drama of fighting and arguing and me on the other hand avoid it like the plague.

I am admittedly not a fighter but a lover! lol.. I really do avoid fighting at all cost's I hate it, I hate how people get hurt, I am not a yeller I am a cryer. When I get angry I tend to cry before yell. I know at times everyone has there moments but these moments come to my mom all the time.

She seems to push people away for no reason whatsoever. And seems to love to pick on little things to make them a bigger issue then they ever should have been.

She has admittedly gotten help this last year with her crazy mood swings and was seeing someone and taking some medication to help control her out of control moments, and it has been better. But recently it seems to getting back to the craziness again.

My whole life we being me and my brother were not as important as other things. My brother can be difficult, he has ADHD, amoung other things I am sure that were never diagnosed. He is now 21 but I would say more on a 17-18 level mental wise. He has a scumbag father that likes to start drama too.. If I start on him it could take this post in a whole other direction so I will leave his scumbagness (yes I did just make up my own word there!) for another post.

So anyway getting back. My step-father is a saint to put up with my mom at times. I don't mean to bad mouth her, I do love her very much and we do have a lot of Fun times with no drama. but when the drama comes about I want to stay out of it. After all I am a grown adult of almost 30 (good, god when did I get so old??) and have my own life to attest to. But people always try to drag me in!

Right now, she was fighting with my step-brother who is 20.. who was home for college she asked him to do something, who knows what and he declined for whatever reason. and she blew up.. then got mad when my step-dad took his son's side. It was probably something small that got blown up way too big..

People insist on dragging me in.. Unless I am involved I want to stay out. Consider me Switzerland! There is so much more but this has just gotten too long already..

More later.

Just so this is not all ranting. Here is a funny picture of my Cousin Samantha at Chuck E Cheese's a couple weeks ago.. She has some Styling Glasses there huh?

Thanks for reading!

Shelly <3

Monday, January 18, 2010

A case of the Mondays..

Today is not turning out to be a good day..

2 weeks ago we try to get our car inspected and it fails the "safety" part. Basically the mechanics say we need 2 new front brake pads to pass. You want to charge me $300? No thank you.. Damien's mom knows someone who will put them on for $50 if we buy the brake pads. Much more reasonable so we do that this weekend. Go get the brake pads and get them put on the car.

So I take the car back over to the place this morning thinking finally we will have the inspection sticker and be good for the year.. Nope.. this guy now says that we only have 2 lug nuts?? What happened to the other 2?? and some struts or something are striped.. Great! How much $149?? What.. no thanks..

I take the car back to work, I tell Damien he calls the guy who did our brakes Saturday and said there were only 3 lug nuts on the tire and thought we knew.. ok so where did the 1 lug nut go from Saturday to this morning?? Who knows..

So now we have to figure out how to get that fixed. To get it inspected. It is way over due. We have never had this much trouble getting an inspection. Let me tell you I miss out mechanic we had.. His wife unfortunately got sick about 6 months ago and he closed down his shop.. So Now I am trying to figure out how to get an inspection and hoping my tire is safe to drive on.

To top it all off I get to work this morning and my Monitor died. SO I have to wait for a new one before starting my work.. then my chair is also broken so I am scouring the building looking for a chair. The only one I found does not go high enough so I am literally sitting on a phone book until I can find a better one..

Please let this be the extent of my Bad Monday.. I'm ready for Tuesday I am so done with this Monday..

Shelly <3

Luckily Damien's Mom's Fiance is going to fix our lug nut problem and stripped struts (say that 5 times fast) issue today. Hopefully then we can get it inspected.. but not at the same place.. so they can find something else wrong.. When My mechanic had the car Saturday he said there were 3 lug nuts on one of the tires, Now there are only 2 so the inspection place lost 2 somewhere between checking it the first time and this time.. but no way to prove it...

** EDIT #2**
Just found out my boss put in his 2 weeks.. Mixed feeling glad he's going, maybe I can actually become the Manager instead of just the Assistant. Since I do it all anyway.. But downside that leaves just me during the day.. It's usually him and me.. Minus him = just me.. Not sure how this will work.. What a Monday!

Monday, January 11, 2010

I Heart Faces - Best Face

I heart faces Birthday! They are a year old and the photos this week that you enter has to have been taken in December '09 or January '10, This one I took on New Years Eve over at our friends House for their New Years Eve Party. Here Jon shows us just how much he loves his River..They are best Buddies. I mean just look at that Smile!

Head over to I heart Faces for More Beautiful Faces!

Shelly <3

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Project 365 ( Day 5)

Perfect theme for day 5 of the 365 project. Samantha's (my little cousin) 5th Birthday Party! Happy Birthday Sammy I love you and look forward to seeing you grow!

Shelly <3

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Project 365 (Day 3&4)

There I go already getting behind. SO here is Day 3 and 4 together!

Shelly <3

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Project 365 (Day 2)

Good thing my Christmas Tree is Sturdy! Yes I do still have my tree up, call it a mix of laziness and working a bunch, but.. It's coming down this weekend, Won't Gumba be upset..

Shelly <3

You Capture - Year in Reveiw


This week at You Capture, Which I missed these last couple of weeks! Is Year in Review some of your favorite pics of 2009! Now I took ALOT of pictures in 09.. Here are just a few of the best!

American Idol Live 2009 (Adam Lambert, I'm partial to Kris and Matt but this was just a great picture of Adam:

The Aquarium with our friends from PA:

We also went the Circus when it was in Town:

And the Erie County Fair:

My New little Friend Lexi:

My 4yr old Cousins very first Dance Recital. She would be the one on the end doing her own thing!:

and I took some awesome pics of a very good Friends Little Boys when I watched for them one weekend this summer:

Can not Forget the David Cook Concert.. Man that guy is good looking and he can sing pretty good too.. lol :

Ok I think I better stop I could go on and on and on.. Head on over to I should be folding laundry for more photo fun!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

365 Project (Day 1)

I see a couple of the people I regularly follow doing something called the 365 Project. Basically you just take a picture a day and upload it. Nothing fancy unless of course you want to. So I think I will hop on board too. It will help me with my photography Skills! Since I am not quite starting at the beginning of the year I will post the first one from New Years eve and start fresh tomorrow with a brand new pic.. This should get interesting.. and also may get me to blog twice as much, once for the 365 project and a normal post. It will be really cool to look back at the end of the year and see what I came up with everyday. I'm actually excited about this, if anybody else is going to hop on board let me know I would love to follow your daily photos too!

Our Friend Joe, Always the life of the party: lol

Look back Tomorrow for a new picture!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

New Years Eve - 2009

New Years eve was great this year. We went to some of our very good friends party and had a great time. There was food,fun and Friends what could be better, here are a couple highlights!

Rose and Jon our Gracious Hosts:

Rose and her baby River:

Food,Food and More Food:

Our Best Friends Johnny & Amy (Damien crashed one of the pics):

River was in Heaven He was getting fed Left and Right,because really how can you deny that face?:

Yes Rose made us all wear New Years Eve Hats!

Hope Everyone's New Year was great, Hopefully 2010 turns out to be a better year then 2009! :

Shelly <3